My Life my own :'(

now I'm talking about my own. 

here is my true stories.

my life.

I'd never try to lie or what, this is just me.

share here can release my stress and all the blame that I've been caried even though that is not my fault at all.

I feel so horable live in my family, cuz everything I do, all of it wasn't right at all.

I think I'm useless.

when my family membered called me a liar,

It hurt me deep in my heart you know:'(

I never though that they would be such as person like that.

called me a slut? a prostitude ? and a cheap girl?

are you done ? done talking bad about me ?

didn't they realise that I was theirs family member.

God Please, open their eyes and let them know, that I'm not that kind of person, like what they thought about me.

I can't even face this world anymore.

This were not my family, I'd never wish to had and entering a family like this.

If I'd born to be talkin bad like this, it better if I'm not even enter this world from the beginning.

why can you all, be nice to me ? 

all you know is to dig up my past time for my mistake, and came with my life history.

It's really damn hurt !

same as like you all kiling me !

I have no idea how to tell you guys anymore.

you just won't believe me.

By the way, deep in my heart,

I loved you all .

even all of you, always talking bad about me.

I just can't do anything anymore.

not because of my past life time,

all of you do this to me.

well, maybe ..

If I'm gone , all of you would be happy right ?

well, it's better if  all of you just pray for me to died soon.

Hope all of you , happy with what did you'll do to me.

Please. Don't make me suicide myself.

GOD , I LOVE YOU FOREVER!

GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME.

I know God know better then a human being.